A Moment of Reflection

Why Twitter?

After a very stressful move on the 21st Dec I found an interest in Twitter around April the following year. The constant adrenaline pumping from the move, Christmas and the amount of work needed every weekend to get the house organised kept me on the go. By Easter I was feeling lost for something to occupy my time. I was reading as much as I could and was constantly looking for more things to read. I found authors I enjoyed and they recommended others. I slowly started to follow more authors and found myself in a top heavy genre of erotic fiction. I think mainly because they would interact more and had livelier personalities. Thinking that my family, who had also followed me on to Twitter, would not appreciate the interaction I was having with a few authors, I decided to open a new account and become Avid Reader. Then at the end of September that year things went all a little downhill. A friends daughter died of brain cancer, she was not even seven. The day after the funeral I had a car crash, spinning my car 180 degrees and rolling it on its side, the shock was more serious than the accident really. I absolutely loved my car and was distraught when I was told it would be written off. Whilst off work from the crash I lost my father after many years of suffering from continual major and minor strokes. It was a very traumatic experience even after knowing I could of lost him many years before. After two weeks of returning to work a little boy I knew lost his father and with the Police beside me I had to explain to him what had happened and promised to take him to the funeral. All the while still suffering with the grief of my own loss.
So here I was within a couple of months I had been to the same crematorium three times. Feeling very low another tragedy hit and I lost my Nan. Back to the crematorium again.

Everything felt surreal and I was mainly on autopilot. I started to sleep for a few hours and read for the rest of the night. As I checked Twitter for new recommendations of authors and stories I became aware of a whole group of amazing people through VOElla. No one would judge and I would happily just read, chat and interact. No one knew what was happening in my life, so no one mentioned it. I could almost lose myself in Twitter and not think about how sad I felt. I feel humbled by the interactions, chats, book recommendations, giggles and the feeling of being myself. I have wonderful people who I can chat to at anytime of the day or night. It might be about nothing but it is almost like a coping mechanism and it helped me immensely. If I worry about other people I don’t have to worry about things happening in real life.

Coaxed by a few I started a blog this October and the positive encouragement I have received has overwhelmed me. I am truly blessed and I wish I could individually thank each and everyone who has either just said hi or had to put up with my annoying chats and quirky sense of humour. Everyone is so positive, supportive and likeable. Thank you all for just being there.

14 thoughts on “A Moment of Reflection”

  1. I had no idea of what you were going through but I am extremely happy you found a way to cope through VoElla. You too have been a wonderful support for many and I am extremely proud to be a small part in this huge family. I wish you a Happy New Year full of smiles and laughter and no more sadness. Big hugs and love coming your way girlfriend.
    Amanda C xx

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  2. What a very moving post. We can know so little about what people are going through as we talk with them online but it is comforting to read your words and that you have found a group of people on Twitter that helps you deal with everything.
    Thank you for being part of what VoElla and bringing life to our timelines!
    Wishing you the very best for the coming new year x

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  3. You never cease to amaze me. You are such a fantastic person to be able to smile through all that loss. Your strength, kind heart and amazing personality have always made me smile. Mwah thank you for everything you do xxx

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  4. you dear are amazing ❤️
    I really had no idea what you went through…and you’re always cheering us all
    I am truly thankful that Twitter brought everyone together and through VOElla we connected
    Squishy hugs and love ❤️❤️❤️❤️

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  5. I’m so sorry for your loss. You are so strong and I admire you for it. I’m so glad this group of beautiful people have given you support and distraction to keep you going. Hopefully a new year is a bright new glimpse of hope and happiness. 💋💞

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    1. Thank you for your caring words my lovely. I feel very blessed to have been able to connect to so many amazing people through Amanda. A New Year and new challenges ahead. Squishy hugs beautiful. 💋💋

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  6. My circumstances are very different, and yet so much of this is familiar. The “dark side” of twitter is a very welcoming and supportive place, where demons can be fought together, and a few laughs can be had afterwards.

    KW

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